Do we need God?

Posted: October 3, 2014 in Uncategorized

It would probably be better to begin this post by warning that my thoughts on the matter are not coherent and I write this blog only to get things out of my system as they are making me sleepless!

This thought or idea started a few months back as a mild curiosity for other religions as well as atheism and has become excruciating annoying now. I have always had some very fundamental assumptions, like we all have, and one of them was that there is “God”. This has somewhat changed now. To be clear, I am not an atheist nor I ever intend to be. I am a Hindu; whatever that means, and will probably continue to be one for the rest of my life. So, the changed assumption is that I now feel that it does not matter if there is a God or not, as long as I believe in one. Also, I now feel that believing in God makes life simpler and that’s why I need God in my life. Its a time tested method, history tells us that much. For eternity, we have had some higher power whatever the form, and attributed everything unexplained to it. Everything that is not in our controls, give it to the God and you feel lighter. But this has been challenged now, especially because of the recent developments in science.

Taking one example, Stephen Hawkins in one of the documentaries explains quite clearly why the popular notion that God created the Universe is false. If I correctly interpreted what he meant, then the gist is that since time did not exist before universe came into being, when did God exist to create it. Well of course I do not have a counter argument for this but I do have another question, why the hell did the universe begin? I am quite sure there will be some incomprehensible astrophysical explanation which is beyond me, but essentially what I am trying to say is there must be some intent behind all this, because without that life is meaningless and this is where God comes in for me. I literally don’t see a meaning to anything unless I know there is some purpose for its existence. Life cannot be a happy coincidence, its just too magnificent to be one! The more I read about various religions, the more I feel that this is the one common denomination between them all. All popular religions try to explain what purpose do we have and I believe until science really answers this, I need God in my life.

Religion or rather organized religion is an entirely different thing though. I do not believe in that anymore and that’s why I said earlier “I am a Hindu, whatever that means”. Sure, I celebrate Hindu festivals, go to temples, pray the traditional prayers and will continue to do that but does that make me Hindu? Firstly, there is a distinction between customs and religion which is somehow always blurred. Secondly, my interpretation of religion is almost entirely different than anyone else’s and so its just not possible for two people to have the same religion. I am currently reading about mental models and cognitive theory and I think it totally applies here. My mental modal of God is not yours and vice-versa. Moreover, you cannot get inside my head, so you cannot really claim to be of the same religion as me, whatever we write on forms. The various sects in all popular religions is the manifestation of the same phenomena, but for me its even more individualistic. Anyhow, I believe religion is causing more trouble that it should and so probably that’s why I want to keep God away from it. Its so weird that if you pause and think, it boils down to people killing each other because some like blue and the other’s red. Its further more ridiculous because we never had the chance to make our opinion about red or blue in the first place. Common truly, how many have actually read the religious texts, compared them with others and thought their’s to be better?

Having said all this, I also sometimes have counter arguments for not believing in God. I mean look at the human race, really, we are pathetic. Remember World War 1 and then 2? I mean life as a phenomena is great and it should have a purpose but if it has its completely eluded us so far. Even people who do claim to have that knowledge doesn’t seem to stop any stupidities from happening. If its all just dragging on then there is no greater purpose and thereby no need for God. So you see its kind of all messed up.

And on this note, I shall end the post. Its no better than saying Forty Two but then you were forewarned!!!! If anyone does read till this line, please excuse the typos, tenses etc..I am finally sleepy 😀

Simply absurd!

Posted: October 7, 2013 in !n life

I have been watching some documentaries on war lately, the American Civil War, Vietnam War, of course the World War; and it has made me realize something ironic and rather absurd.

It’s so weird that we are closer to life when nearer to death! The documentaries that I have watched essentially had interviews or memoirs of war veterans and their families. The way these people talk about life feels so unreal yet so much in sync with the ultimate philosophy or at least the one I have heard. The one where you don’t care about the end results but do your duty. The one in which materialistic things stop to matter.

Not only the soldiers almost everyone who was a part of the war believed in a greater purpose. People lived simplistically, helped their neighbors, did things they would never do otherwise! All of them had the kind of strength we just cannot imagine at present. Naturally there are hardly any positives about wars and of course war was, is and perhaps will be one of the most wasteful human activity on all possible fronts, however it definitely let some people explore another side of themselves and made pity things actually pity. The sense of having a purpose be it destruction or liberation made them connect to their core in ways we cannot. It’s so sad that most of us can find such purpose only in adversity!

Bengaluru..miss you already!

Posted: October 8, 2012 in Uncategorized

It’s almost been four years since I came to Bangalore and its not an exaggeration when I say I am totally in love with the city. Although its partly because it was one of the best phase of my life that I spent here and also I made really good friends but I sincerely do love the city as well. I will miss everything starting from food and whether to BMTC buses..but more specifically the flowers and the rangolis. They really are beautiful….

Unfortunately, Bangalore is portrayed wrongly outside or at least where I come from. Its almost felt that it is a city full of youngsters drinking and “pubbing” all the time, parties and concerts, you get the picture..really its so not like that….I recall we once did an assignment on Bangalore culture during college and at last concluded it as a city which has a perfect amalgamation of new and the old. The street I live in is a perfect example of the same…it is surrounded by all possible eating joints and pubs and people do go there all the time but at the same time you walk in the morning and all houses and literally all will have a beautiful rangoli drawn in front with a varanda full of flowers….the city therefore gives you a choice to live the way you want…you can enjoy the pub and a decent homely life as well…and fyi all pubs in fact everything normally accessible shuts down at 11 p.m. so its not all how it looks on some MTV show.

To summarize, the people here are generally friendly and warm (except the autowalas ;)) and the city is safe at most time. Public transport is superb (by that i mean BMTC rocks!) and let us hope the roads will be great some day! And as for being expensive, don’t come here if the only entertainment source you have is watching cinema in theaters! I don’t think any other big city can compete with Bangalore in being green and don’t worry the pani-puri isn’t bad either. So in short it is a lovely place to stay and I am so glad that I got posted in Bangalore. The only regret for the last 4 years, “couldn’t learn Kannada” but there is always a next time! So goodbye for now…Enjoymadi!

– Love is overrated –

Posted: September 2, 2012 in Uncategorized

I was just thinking the other day, in all the great love stories one of the protagonist, usually suffers some tragedy or rather dies in the end. This kept me wondering for a long time what is it about death that strongly invokes the feeling of love? When I thought more, I realized it isn’t love at all that creates this strong emotion and makes us empathize but its actually pity. If someone dies in the age of 70, no one really cares for the person’s spouse, all the crying and rubbish is there but no one feels that bad however if someone is dead at 40 then people really feel the tragedy of the thing. Ideally love should increase proportionally with time and be felt more strongly when loosing someone after 40 years of association than with 20. In fact there should be love stories around children and parents, they love us more and ideally we should love them back more if the rule of association applies. There are some stories which portray this relationship as well, but have you ever wondered they also usually involve a parent leaving or dying at an early age? I mean if someone’s mother died at 4 he wont even remember her when he grows up but then people cry when they show the mother dead at 4. The truth is no one cares enough when she dies when the child is 40 unfortunately not even the children.So in conclusion what I have realized is that love is directly proportional to your dependency on that person. At 4 you need your mother, at 40 your spouse and so you “love” people solely because you need them. This need could be emotional, all that argument is fine but its a need, there is nothing else to it. You need that person in life because of all the practical reasons not because of some stupid feeling, that stupid feeling is a result of all the practical reasons. I wonder if everyone knows this in their heart. The only people I can’t fit into this theory are the one who commit suicide and all because they claim to be in love, but then there are always psychopaths. May be its 2 am effect and I need sleep but I sincerely feel and have felt from a long time now that love is exponentially overrated.

The misery..

Posted: August 26, 2012 in !n life

It was a good…until’s really weird to explain sometimes why a perfectly good day can be depressing at the end. It happens to me many time, I am not sure if it happens to others also…I woke up fresh, did quite an important work that was pending, chatted for a long time with my fiance…in short had a perfect sort of morning I could hope for and then suddenly the evening just lost its charm. I called a few friends, felt really great for a while and then again the same uneasiness. I even had good food! So in short I have no sane reason to fill miserable yet I do, I suppose it is what I call the “sunday” effect. I enjoy working, moreover I enjoy my work yet there is something obnoxious about Sunday night, it just makes you feel you have no freedom and you cannot do anything about it. There is something about feeling lazy too; you enjoy it to a point beyond which you neither want to stop being lazy nor like the laziness and then you are stuck. And at these too unrelated thought I want to stop posting cause I know it is a pointless post going nowhere and making me more miserable when it aught to have the opposite effect!

–Exam Season–

Posted: March 18, 2012 in !n life

I bet everyone have had this dream once in their life when they find themselves writing a test which they no longer need to give….I had one such recently..I was back to 12th standard and was giving Hindi test. Apparently there was a translation of a poem which I had never heard off and I had to translate it (it was in a Hindi dialect). The worst bit was that the dream continued and I perfectly recall that I had maths next and had not studied even a this time I woke up..Hindi is one thing, Maths quite another..

I have had these dreams many times but I suppose this time it happened because there is something about this weather. Its been quite a while since I took exams in March  (don’t want to put it years now ;)) but the climate, the wind during this month simply reminds me of exams and then the awaited holiday. Although now all I hear is financial year just was so awesome that each year we had those wonderful 3 months holidays and before that anticipation of those 3 months (we never had any classes during summer). 

Growing up isn’t easy, I knew it, but the dream reminded me once again how I miss my school and that time, even the “Exam season”

~ Happy Diwali ~

Posted: October 27, 2011 in Uncategorized

Its been too long since I posted something and so I have many topics which I can write about but since its Diwali today, well this one is about Diwali….

So Diwali…ate good food, made Rangoli and had fun, the usual I guess; although first time with my in laws. However that’s another story 😉

For me the difference in this Diwali and the many (unfortunately many :s) others which have followed before, was that this time I truly participated in the celebrations despite being alone for most of the day! I suppose this being alone made all the difference…I have realized for the first time the importance of any festival and the celebration which follows. I have always hated festivals mostly because its meeting more people and smiling fake smiles, always loved the food but wanted it without the fuss. But since I was alone this year and no one around me to create the enthusiasm, I realized I missed it. Though never really participating in things I do enjoy the zeal which any Indian festival seems to be surrounded with. Its certainly not about religion, I am unsure if its culture either, why we celebrate these countless festivals is because we want a way out of the monotony and yes it gets monotonous, really!

Festivals are a good way for everyone to enjoy. They do have their problems but I suppose they bring color to life from time to time. Not everyone can find reasons to celebrate all through the year. Imagine a year when you don’t get married, promoted, you don’t pass-out or get awarded and you also don’t win a lottery; you therefore have no reason to celebrate except your birthday and trust me birthday’s are not fun after a certain age (:S :S :S)

I suppose that’s when Diwali seems important. That’s why festivals has been celebrated from centuries, don’t know if we really recall the coming back of Lord Ram anymore!!!

So hope everyone had a great today!